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2003-07-07 - 5:00 p.m. I HaveaCoolCar: i didn't get as much press as the next guy I HaveaCoolCar: gee thanks dolphin: you're jealous? I HaveaCoolCar: yes I HaveaCoolCar: it should have been me I HaveaCoolCar: LOL dolphin: you're serious? dolphin: yeah but I put more juicy details in about you I HaveaCoolCar: so who did u enjoy more? I HaveaCoolCar: u didn't say I HaveaCoolCar: lol dolphin: heh dolphin: can I level with you? I HaveaCoolCar: sure dolphin: you made it clear that you and I didn't have the potential to go anywhere beyond having some fun I HaveaCoolCar: ok yes and? I HaveaCoolCar: so now u don't like me? I HaveaCoolCar: or don't wanna have some fun again? dolphin: therefore, I remain objective and keep a bit of distance (I can do that - lots of girls can't or won't) I HaveaCoolCar: well? dolphin: I said that the experience may even bear repeating - that hasn't changed dolphin: and I still like you I HaveaCoolCar: ok good I HaveaCoolCar: ur a sweet girl dolphin: it was just an apples and oranges kind of comparison - one I'm not prepared to make dolphin: I try I HaveaCoolCar: i know i was jokin I HaveaCoolCar: i know u loved me I HaveaCoolCar: LOL I HaveaCoolCar: :-) dolphin: I loved your cock - and you don't fault me for that dolphin: and you don't know how sweet I am I HaveaCoolCar: i don't fault u for anything I HaveaCoolCar: ha ha I HaveaCoolCar: LOL dolphin: there are only 8 that do I HaveaCoolCar: touche dolphin: and didn't seem interested in finding out, from what I remember dolphin: you have to realize that I'm not a dumb girl I HaveaCoolCar: i never said ur a dumb girl I HaveaCoolCar: i like what i like I HaveaCoolCar: and i think u know what i like I HaveaCoolCar: so what did u do all weekend dolphin: you like what every other guy on the face of the planet likes I HaveaCoolCar: ha ha dolphin: it's not that complicated I HaveaCoolCar: lol dolphin: I'm not wrong dolphin: I'm looking for more than incredible sex. I HaveaCoolCar: i understand dolphin: what I'm looking for is lots of things AND incredible sex dolphin: LOL I HaveaCoolCar: dolphin: with the same person dolphin: (and possibly lots of other people) I HaveaCoolCar: lol dolphin: I'm looking for a primary relationship dolphin: something stable with some substance I HaveaCoolCar: :-) dolphin: that I can then go and have fun with other people I HaveaCoolCar: :-) dolphin: and come home and tell the tales, get all worked up and have really hot sex dolphin: or invite other people in as thirds and fourths I HaveaCoolCar: :-D I HaveaCoolCar: dolphin: pretty simple, really I HaveaCoolCar: lol dolphin: hey - do you blame me? I HaveaCoolCar: i don't anything u dolphin: if a girl said - sure, go have fun. just come home to me when you're done. you'd dig that kind of arrangement, wouldn't you? I HaveaCoolCar: hell yes I HaveaCoolCar: lol dolphin: or "is she cute? bring her home! I'll watch, maybe join in." you'd be ok with that too dolphin: that's part of what I'm looking for dolphin: most guys get suspicious - think it's some kind of a trap dolphin: and it's not I HaveaCoolCar: i don't think its a trap I HaveaCoolCar: i am open minded I HaveaCoolCar: LOL I HaveaCoolCar: have ur cake and eat it to I HaveaCoolCar: LOL dolphin: but that kind of a relationship is special I HaveaCoolCar: :-) dolphin: to be able to go outside the relationship, the relationship itself has to be built on more than sex I HaveaCoolCar: true dolphin: I think you're a great guy - (very handsome) bright, dynamic and charming - and once you decide to, you're going to be a great partner to a very lucky girl dolphin: right now, you're having fun - and that's what being young is all about I HaveaCoolCar: :-) dolphin: but you may wind up missing something wonderful in someone very special because all you see is sex dolphin: and that's kinda sad I HaveaCoolCar: not true I HaveaCoolCar: i have kinda given up on meeting someone I HaveaCoolCar: and just having fun for a while dolphin: why give up? I HaveaCoolCar: gonna focus on my business I HaveaCoolCar: and gettin my shit together I HaveaCoolCar: women are too much of a distraction for me I HaveaCoolCar: searching for them that is I HaveaCoolCar: LOL dolphin: but apparently you've been meeting a lot of someones under the auspices of having fun dolphin: why not take a closer look? or is it too much trouble? I HaveaCoolCar: explain? dolphin: you've met quite a few women from what I understand dolphin: the ones that were worth more than just sex probably moved on fairly quickly (because they knew they wereworth more than just sex) ... or maybe didn't even meet you at all. look back. hindsight is 20/20. dolphin: I'm on your side here - looking out for you. not criticising. I HaveaCoolCar: i understand I HaveaCoolCar: i don't know I HaveaCoolCar: like i said i have to be happy with me and where i want to be before i can get serious with someone dolphin: I understand that one all too well dolphin: you can't love someone and you certainly can't let anyone else love you unless and until you love yourself dolphin: I've been fighting that demon for years. I HaveaCoolCar: :-( I HaveaCoolCar: me too dolphin: I made a conscious decision that night to let you use me. And to play the same game ... use you right back. But I know that as much as you got from me, you missed out ... and so did I. dolphin: and life's too short to have only superficial connections I HaveaCoolCar: why did u do that? dolphin: why did I do what? let you use me? I HaveaCoolCar: yes I HaveaCoolCar: plus i didn't use u I HaveaCoolCar: i still talk to u I HaveaCoolCar: it was hornyness I HaveaCoolCar: and u offered I HaveaCoolCar: LOL I HaveaCoolCar: I HaveaCoolCar: dolphin: lets call a spade a spade here I HaveaCoolCar: LOL dolphin: you used me dolphin: and you're still talking to me because you intend to do it again dolphin: if I'll let you I HaveaCoolCar: i didn't use u because i never said i wanted anything serious from u I HaveaCoolCar: ur makin me feel bad dolphin: and generally speaking, if you didn't still talk to me, that would make you an asshole and me a very bad judge of character dolphin: but you're not an asshole and I'm a very good judge of character dolphin: and you're a good guy dolphin: but that's a cop-out and you know it. just because you never said that you wanted anything serious doesn't mean that you didn't use me (or any other girl for that matter) I HaveaCoolCar: I HaveaCoolCar: ok fine I HaveaCoolCar: dolphin: and part of you doesn't really want to do things the way that you've been doing them - and doesn't respect the women who put up with it - but doesn't think he deserves the women who wouldn't put up with it dolphin: I overanalyze, but I'm good at it I HaveaCoolCar: stop it dolphin: I HaveaCoolCar: ur freakin me out I HaveaCoolCar: LOL dolphin: I'm not wrong though dolphin: and that's the scariest part I HaveaCoolCar: yes i know dolphin: damn I'm good dolphin: LOL dolphin: I deal with a lot of the same issues I HaveaCoolCar: I HaveaCoolCar: dolphin: one of the reasons that I understand it all dolphin: when you make up your mind to be the man that you were meant to be - your best self, you'll be a lot happier, and things will start to fall into place for you. I don't know exactly who that man is, but I see shadows of him, and he's a wonderful person - one that I think I'd like to know and be friends with - real friends. I HaveaCoolCar: yes i know I HaveaCoolCar: thanks dolphin: remind me to read you a few poems, ok? I HaveaCoolCar: ok dolphin: there are two that I think may fit I HaveaCoolCar: i person I HaveaCoolCar: in person dolphin: yeah I HaveaCoolCar: i was reading some of ur entries I HaveaCoolCar: from day one dolphin: there's hope for you yet! dolphin: dolphin: this time I get to pick the venue I HaveaCoolCar: ok I HaveaCoolCar: deal dolphin: good I HaveaCoolCar: dolphin: so what's your baseball schedule like? I HaveaCoolCar: u know u do have me by the balls I HaveaCoolCar: LOL I HaveaCoolCar: comin up pretty crazy dolphin: in more ways than one at this point I HaveaCoolCar: dolphin: I am a patient woman dolphin: and these issues are not going away anytime soon I HaveaCoolCar: i am not patient dolphin: it can wait a bit dolphin: but you will be dolphin: (you know how good it is - good enough to wait for) I HaveaCoolCar: i have a game thursday night I HaveaCoolCar: but i don't wanna wait for it I HaveaCoolCar: i want it now...now now now I HaveaCoolCar: LOL dolphin: welcome to adulthood I HaveaCoolCar: dolphin: I'll be your tour guide dolphin: crap - I didn't realize what time it was. I have to go pick up my son from daycare I HaveaCoolCar: ok dolphin: I'll be online from home or reachable by phone I HaveaCoolCar: i did call u saturday night dolphin: i know
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